September results (Good God!)

  As you can see, the month started off rather well, and then I hit a combination of runbad, play bad, and perhaps variance. I was happy to finally finish up, albeit for very little. This was the 2nd month that I have been focusing on my online NLHE game more serious than ever before. I started off August as a bad, cold calling, LAG and managed a winning month. I began shaving off the LAG image throughout September, yet had hands like KK<QQ, AA<KK, trip 9s lose to flush on the river (standard) KK<AA, all of these all-in pots either when I was ahead or preflop.

  I went back on to Deuces Cracked to watch some micro stakes NLHE videos and felt as though I was gaining some good info. I watched the 2nd series of "New Kid on the Block", by Sean Nolan and began another more recent series. I have been posting more hands on 2P2 forums and have been "grunching" a lot more hands as well to see if my thought process is in line with others. I still have a long ways to go before I feel comfortable with my game, especially when it comes to the prospect of moving up to NL10, not only from a BR perspective, but many other facets as well. Bad results have been hard to deal with at times and I can see myself tilting much more than I had hoped for at this point. It's obviously not the money as NL4 is nothing compared to amounts I have won or lost in the past. It's the thought that I suck at poker. I went through this a bit, if you recall from earlier blog entries, while learning LHE. My results had some big swings and I would live and die with each session, which is not healthy in any regard. I am more frustrated than ever because I am starting at the lowest level and having a difficult time being a winning player. When I look up results for some of the other names I am up against, they all are major losing players. The one consolation so far is that I have only played about 12,000 hands since August 1st and that is quite a small sample size to go off of.

  I am hoping to continue the process of truly learning NLHE and feeling confident in my game, so that if and when federal legislation is passed, hopefully by 2014, I will be ready to grind out some cheeseburgers. Oh well. Thanks for reading and I hope to hear from any of you out there. I will be off to Vegas in a little over 2 weeks so I hope ladyluck has some good things in store for me there.
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